My mum said “How many more years are you planning to do this cosplay stuff?” and I just shrugged but in my head I said that I would do it for as long as possible.
I’ve literally JUST found a community where I perfectly fit in. Inside I’m fuming at the fact I didn’t know about them when I was younger or else I would’ve gone to them. I’m 19 and all the childhood years are gone now and I’m always blaming myself for wasting them because I was such a freak. I feel like that I’m slipping back in that “life regret” stage that I had the beginning of this year. It began to disappear after I saw Frozen in February, and when I went to MCM in May it vanished. I think it was because I knew that there would always be conventions in the future. But I’m worried that something will happen and I won’t go to them any more.
Whenever I make a friend who is a fangirl or maybe a cosplayer etc etc I sometimes ask them something like this “do your parents accept your fangirling/cosplaying and/or do they just let you get on with it?” and they always say yes, and then I look at the floor and feel a bit sad and jealous.
I still haven’t come out because I’m a ball of insecurity and fear. Funny thing though, when I make new friends I come out straight away. When I’m with my family my confidence just vanishes. Also what gave you the confidence to (almost) come out?
Oh god I’m in such a depressed mood (tell you why in a minute) that when I played the MCM Comic Con video to cheer me up it just made me worse so I had to stop it 8/
frozen-on-the-derpy-side is the leader of North Mountainology 8) But I’M the leader of the Jerry the Braid fandom! 8D
WAKE ME UP BEFORE YOU GO GO I DON’T WANNA MISS IT WHEN YOU HIT THAT HIGH
Aww you ^.^